thanks for answering. I had challenges of entering with my password. I wanted to start a fast today (water or maybe MC), but this is too difficult at the moment. You are not harsh at all. I need and want to hear the warnings of repentance. I have been disobedient for so long. Today was a good day. It was the first day sober 100%. I claim your words about me becoming sober. I give the load of suffering to my Lord and Savior Christ. I will always strive to look up at god and not down on myself. I know I have hurt my wife so much. I have confessed always in the past, but she doesn´t want to hear that anymore. Shje just wants to see me doing the right things. But she is willing to forgive me, she is just wonderful.
I still need to pray very hard to reach Christ.
I started SCF today and promise to you and to mayself to stick with it for 60 days!!!!!
I know that God and christ love me, and I still feel the Lord´s blessings in some areas in my life.
Thanks for being there for me and for your prayers.