Don't give up! I know how you feel, and I want you to know that you will get through it. I ask myself these same questions everyday- and heaven knows I give 110% and am lucky if I can just get through the day. I am allergic to practically everything,and suffer from constant horrible pain. I have so many symptoms that I can't even wrap my brain around it all. Out of everything I've tried, maybe a handful of things have made a difference, and slowly at that! Keep praying for guidance and wisdom and you will make it! Never lose your sense of humour and your love of life and gratitude- I find that is what helps me the most!