I find it most interesting that you are seeing differently with right and left eyes. I wonder if you should focus on how you feel. You say that you feel calm when looking, but when you put your mind into action and think about what you see you become terrified. I would focus on the calm...don't let the mind work overtime.
I do not have specific advice for you. But I would be curious to hear what Andreas Moritz would say if you posted your question to him on his forum. You might have to wait a few days to post on "Ask Andreas" but I think he might provide a positive and interesting perspective.