Re: Thoughts and an unintentional ramble

All I can say is from my own experience. I'm an INTP / ENTP (I flop between Introvert and Extravert), along with Edison, Descartes, & Jung. (Introverted, Intuitive, Thinking, Perceiver.) That said, I tend to intuit or feel things first, but have to, Have To, analyze and examine and research and tinker and experiment until I either verify or refute my "feeling".

Because of this wonderful little pyschological bent (hah!) I tend to suffer from paralysis by analysis - I analyze Everything to death. It seems to drive some people absolutely batty (good thing my husband is INTJ and can both rise above and flow with all the mental tinkering.) INT's tend towards a more rational hands on view. We *like* to figure things out and enigmas and contradictions bother us so I can relate to a lot of where you're coming from.

I grew up with a an extremely intelligent and well read father who had a library that seemed to never end. I fell into a love of reading and learning at a very young age (I learned to read at 3.) I adore history and became enamored with Philosophy before reaching my teens. As much as I loved Emerson, it was, of all people, the more philosophical writings of Max Plank that truly caught my attention. On to the realm of quantum mechanics /physics, whoohoo! Then on to metaphysics and theosophy (as well as now being educated by both an Episcopal youth group and then graduating from a missionary Baptist school.)

I'll spare you the rest, but Somewhere along the way I realized I was searching for something I couldn't define, so, I sat down and tried to define it. I was searching for answers to the unexplainable - the questions posed by others and the questions from my own life. If I just kept reading, kept looking, kept asking questions, eventually, I'd find the answers, I simply wasn't looking hard enough! Time for full scale Experimentation! And experiment I did, in many ways, some Much more detrimental to my health than others, some just plain dead ends.

However (knew that was coming, didn't you?) I have had far too many events in my life that simply fall through the still wide cracks of modern science. As such, I'm left with a dilemma: Do I simply toss them aside as being irrelevant because I can't explain them, or do I search beyond the walls of Science for explanation? My mind doesn't like the idea of shelving something away simply because I don't understand it. Noooo, that's Precisely the type thing that piques my curiosity, sets all the gears in motion, and keeps me awake into the wee hours researching and reading and pondering and looking, ever looking, for a REASON.

(Did I mention I'm also a touch obsessive compulsive? As well as being diagnosed years ago as manic depressive, so you can just imagine the fervor and whirlwind of research that goes on when all my glorious psychological and personality traits start working together! LOL)

But, I digress. You mention that *in your experience* all of your odd events can be explained away by rational scientific means. In my experience, I can't say the same. I won't bore you (any more than I already have, lol) with the numerous, numerous oddities I've had (besides, they'd require a small book to cover all the circumstances and events leading to and surrounding them, then all the theories tested and tossed aside researching them.) So, years ago, I made a conscious decision to start trusting my intuition (INTP, remember) when it came to my concept of "God".

I haven't had a serious, soul wrenching problem making the scientific and the spiritual sides of myself integrate, but I will say that it's not always easy. It's actually become easier of the years as more and more the God called Science is set back on his heels by contradicting and unreconcilable arguments within his own ranks. Of course, this is absolutely *normal* for Science and any good scientist is always willing to revamp and start over when a theory doesn't pan out (too bad so many scientists are as dogmatic about their pet theories as some religious people are about their belief on "The One True God, but that's another rant.) But still, it makes it easier to let go and flow between understanding on the physical plane and understanding on a more basic and emotional plane.

After all these years, I don't see that science and spirituality are really all that different. Just over time, the two areas have developed completely different languages to pretty much describe the same world as viewed from their angle.

Maybe we just all need to move around in our beliefs a little more, whether they be relational or rational or religious, and see things from more than just one or two similar angles. Maybe our poor human verbalizations on "God" are simply all just mirrors, reflecting back what we put into them. Perhaps "God" may better be viewed as a giant mirrored ball, each pane reflecting back the light of the ones who look at "It" whether they come from the realm of quantum physics or the Abrahamic systems, from primal shamanism or technomancy. "God" in the center is all that we all view, and yet so much more beyond what we can describe. Maybe, just maybe, it's supposed to be that way. After all, all religions have their mysteries, even science. ;) Tweet