BEWARE of Vanity, brethren.
In my zeal for The Lord and my ambition for intimacy in my personal relationship with The Lord, I have not just acknowledged that there are "DEPTHS of God" (1 Corinthians 2:10), but sought them. The Lord has shown me that the temptation to vanity now confronts me. The Lord does warn against having the ambition for "equality" (Phillipians 2:6) with God, but, I, in my zeal, was shortsighted in not heeding that warning. We should simply be content to be His servants and let His grace be sufficient for us. If we don't do that, it is because of the flesh (natural limitations) that we ultimately find ourselves just "chasing after the wind". I, of course, was sorrowful (I was heartbroken that I had disappointed The Lord) that I insisted on taking this 'fools journey' in the first place, but The Lord has been understanding about my love, and I now regard it as an 'adventure with God' and the intimacy that I sought. I now see that He guided me to take that journey (Praise Jesus, The Lord works for the good of those who love Him).
So, what of these "depths"? They may not be as fitting for The Body as we think, HUMILITY is my lesson. The Lord has grown me...and The Lord has shown me...
that even the wisdom of the wise is folly with The Lord.
BEWARE of VANITY my brethren.
Love,
been there done that