Re: what helped me
This is so true: "i accepted that i am loved, deeply loved, and cared for by the eternal creator, i accepted it even if i didn't feel it at the time. this reality is slowly becoming more more real everyday. i pray to be healed inside every day, and every day The Creator answers that prayer a little bit more."
On the spiritual healing side, THAT is the most vital, simple, yet difficult lesson to grasp. Each of us is inherently worthwhile. We are loved.
My counselor has been trying to get that through to me for YEARS. I grasp it, I feel it, I lose it....then I find it again. Here are the lessons I am learning at this moment....
I don't have to prove my value, it is inherent. I am a child of God, beloved, period. My success in mortality is NOT dependant on how other percieve me; only how God percieves me--and, as hard as it is for me to accept, with my failings and shortcomings (that I see) God thinks I am wonderful.
Believe it. Accept.
FF, I didn't have to give up my 'organized' religion, I just had to let go of all the false misconceptions I'd allowed to be picked up along the way. Each has to figure that part out. If it offers you support and love, you can hold on to it. If it 'beats' you, let it go. Your other suggestions were real close to what I've done as well. So many of us on the same healing path.
blessings, I really enjoyed how your post resonated with what I'm learning
peace, joy in the journey,
pj