Well not sure if I can help at all here, but I'll tell you that I sort of feel how you explained your (boyfriend? not sure if your married to him now or not, didn't get that)feels. After I was diagnosed I was shocked and I feel that I've lost some of my sex drive, I see it happening. There is something that goes on in the head that changes. I just don't feel like I used to, I do like making love but it takes more than it used to to get to that point. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 1 1/2 yrs and he is great. He supports me and understands and comforts me, but I know that he misses the way things used to be also. So my reccomendation would be to talk, to talk about everything, how you feel, find out how he feels and what's changed... I think that if he knows you care and that you won't leave him etc.. then it's easier to live with and once he accepts himself again, hopefully things will get better. Also, the other part is that if you truly love him then you have to adjust and learn to live with certain things, However, sometimes that's not possible, people have to be true to themselves, and happy, in order to be happy with another. Well, hope this helped a bit.