Re: hows is everyone? improvements, relapses, whatever...

hi Gracey,
I'm new to this forum so I'm not sure about your story or your current situation... but I've had anorexia/ed-nos for almost 5 years...I made an attempt at recovery over this past summer, but I wasn't fully ready for it so it just didn't work out. I had no support, I just dove right in thinking that I could suddenly fix everything, but it didn't work.. I hadn't even admitted my ED to anyone yet, even though I knew it was a huge problem and so did everyone else. It's an incredibly hard thing to let go of, because you can't just hold on to a tiny little part of your eating disorder, "just in case" you ever need it again- you have to really try to let go, or it's just too easy to fall back on it at the first sign of adversity. I've learned so much about myself in the past 6 months...I've finally come to terms with the fact that I do have an ED, and although there is never going to be a sudden revelation as to why I developed one, I'm starting to realize the main factors that contributed to it.... and all of my personality traits that made me so susceptible to it (you know the usual..extreme perfectionism, intelligent, overly sensitive, caring, the peacemaker among the family, etc)...So I understand myself and my behaviors a lot more than I did last year or the year before, but that still leaves me here with this addiction to hunger. such a hard thing to deal with... it is still ruining my health... but I hope that I can recover one day.
What is your story..are you recovered? What ED did you/do you have? Have you been through treatment?

I hope everyone is doing okay... take care (well, try to!). Have a good night...

-Amanda Tweet