The first lesson is to love yourself. We are always being told that we must love other people more, that we must be more loving to everyone and that we must give more. I loved other men so much that I was willing to do anything – absolutely anything at all – in order to continue “earning” their love, and for them to consider me “worthy” of receiving their love. I gave to them and I gave to them without stopping, I did everything they asked/ordered/demanded of me, and I let them do anything they wanted to me. I let them hit me, “punish” me by locking me in rat-infested attics to spend the nights, take all my money and kick me out on the streets to live there. I did it because I loved them so much that I was willing to do anything, to suffer anything at all, so that they could continue to be happy.