I am resisting being called a diabetic. I did the clinic thing last year, but refused the meds, and turned in blood test readings good enough to get me on a yearly call-back (which is due this month).
I also got a new doctor, telling her that I am responsible for my own health, that I will never blame her for anything. Probably I sounded fool-hardy, but I don't mind.
I think a "controlled diabetic" means controlled by me, not by meds.
The leg-spots have been going on years longer than doctor's suspicion of diabetes, however, like since the early 1980's.
My main problem for several years has been gall/ liver stones . I've felt I have been making good progress in this area, by minding my diet, etc., but there's this dull ache in my side, even tonight, that tells me to mind my p's and q's.
Probably I've been 'allowing' too many indiscretions. I have this mind-set that doesn't want to see the world as going to the hot place in a handbasket. 'Invincibility' still lives in my heart. I have this idea that there is always a way.
However, we who post on the CureZone have a responsibility to those who only read. A la-de-da attitude may be all well and good in our own lives, up to a point, but it may be harmful to the quiet ones looking for guidance.
This business of 'research' is difficult. I find myself thinking that I don't need to be so 'serious', and even that too much focus on the negative will bring me more of the same. (Getting more of what I don't want?)
So, where are my real strengths? Can a senior woman figure out, and accomplish, well-being, within the context of an 'ordinary' life?
Inside my head, a voice is whispering, 'Yes'. But, darned if I know how. I'll try. And I'll report.
I'd also like to acknowledge those on these boards who struggle with very serious ailments, yet find the time and compassion to give a helping hand.
Bravo, good friends!!!
I thank you. I admire you. You are in our thoughts, even of those who do not post.