I've just found this site, and I'm feeling hopeful. Last night I woke up at 4 am after four hours sleep, and I'm concerned. I did one liver flush a week ago, I've put all my amino acids on hold, I'm added physillium, bentonite, fish oil, magnesium, liguid vitamins (as opposed to pills)parasite herbs, and apple cider vinegar to my regimen, and am currently taking a break from all my other herbs and supplements.I feel like my mind is clearing enough, and it's time to win this battle, and yet, the warning flag is up, and I feel like I have been here so many times before--that the cycle is starting to repeat.

Can you give me any advice on how to break this cycle? Could this be the time I learn enough to regain my health and stay well?
(besides the depression, my hands shake pretty constantly, I experience fatigue, brain fog, memory problems,my eyesight is weakening, my arm strenth has diminished greatly,misc. body pains. I have resisted any medical tests that would label me, so I can't be more specific.)

I realize this is a long post--and that I have much learning/reading to do. Thank you for any advice/hope/counsel you may give.

*There was more going on than just his birth. Just prior to his birth, my husband lost his job, we had to move, my mother died, the cat died, financial woes, etc....then the birth...followed by a prescription for Zoloft because I didn't 'feel' right, first severe insomnia attack,a forced 3 week visit to a psych ward due to ob's 'concern'and insomnia induced pychosis, various horrific (scary)drugs there (which I didn't continue) and THEN the first horrendous depression hit.

P.S. Since I posted this, the warning flag is waving harder. For the past 3 nights I've awakened at 3 a.m. and can't return to sleep. I don't want to repeat this pattern. Help.
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That was 10 days ago--hey, my tiredness just hit me, so I'll try to get back to this.  To see what I did and how I'm currently feeling, go to post on "Depression Alternative Support and read "What Cracked the Egg of Depression". I'm going on who knows how many days of sleeping 4 hours max, and I must admit that I promised after my last bout with this weird insomnia that lasted 3 months, I would never complain about only getting four hours of sleep again. I lied. My body is protesting with pain. So, I'm heading to bed to try again, but please understand:  I'm NOT feeling depressed right now, I'm very hopeful. This has happened before .  I need more sleep that this--I'm clumsy, and my nerves are raw--signs that it's not enough sleep. I know what psychosis is like, having experienced it because of the horrendous events that occured 11 years ago--it makes me cry to hear the story, and it's my story!  I know when I'm getting close to the line, I'm no where near that yet. BUT--I've never stayed out of the depression hell, and I think the shorter this period of insonmnia is, the less likely I will return to depression. I'm sure changing the cycle is one of the keys.  I have tried the following for the not sleeping thing:  (I'm too tired to finish. I'd best go try to sleep. If I can't, I'll be back)

pj