Just wanted to let you know that im trying my best to get rid of my paranoia, and im making a huge effort for my girlfriend.
It is hard trying to lose the paranoia especially when she says throwaway comments like:
'When i used to meet a bloke, and he went to kiss me i use to run off, but im not like that now. I wouldnt cheat on you, i only talk to blokes (which is fair enough, just the first line threw me a bit'.
'I wouldnt dream of cheating on you as if you found out then i feel you would go walkies'
This stemmed from just a general conversation and talking about our love together.
She said at first that she didnt think it would last (i use to work some really crappy shifts and i only saw her two nights a week) but she is glad that it has lasted.
So i am fighting it.
I was up last night till 1am doing her a pasta dish to take to work with her, i woke up at 7am, cycled upto her house and delivered her dinner. This was after id just done a 14 hour shift.
She told me i was mad :-)
Just wanted to suprise her etc. And show that i care about her.
I have to accept that she may look at another bloke, its nature. I look at other women so cant be calling the kettle black.
I wouldnt do anything with them though as id lose too much.
Just thought id let you know im making an effort for her.