If I were you I'd look in the mirror and ask what I wanted. f that doesn't work get really feckin angry. Anger is a great way of getting through blocked emotions and feelings of defeat. Get bloody pissed off with the candida and make a pact to beat it. Don't beat yourself up when you lapse, address your reasons for doing so. You, obviously have other issues that need addressing, emotional, etc, before you can be rid of yeast.