This has really been a strange afternoon. For a good part of the day I have been having old and often very unpleasant memories came up from who-knows-where. These include memories of verbal and emotional abuse, a horrible incident of molestation when I was six. The heartbreak of sharing that long buried memory with someone I loved and trusted only to be totally rejected because he couldn't understand or handle that kind of thing. I remembered trying to tell my mother about the incident only to be told it happened because I was a bad girl. Funny, the only times I've ever spoken about that, thirty years apart has resulted in rejection. I was just thinking "what if I get banned from Curezone because this happened?" Anyway, its been a difficult day, hopefully it will prove to be one that is beneficial and healing.I been near tears for quite a while, I couldn't even go to church tonight. Thanks y'all for letting me open up. Something is definitely going on, I hope I'm strong enough to weather it.