And I apologize for a world that hasn't protected you with all the best information.
We didn't get everything we needed, either, back about fifty years ago when I was seventeen. Who knew what was coming?
You are so lucky to be finding out for yourself, at your age.
How in the the world did you come to this website? And where did you get the courage and patience to read here?
You must be one smart cookie! (That's my best phrase of praise, and I don't say it lightly.)
Hang in there, young friend!
You will not only triumph, you will teach others by example and maybe even through writing, or instructing, if you choose.
The world doesn't yet know the information it needs. And it is suspicious of those who try things by instinct and common sense. You will be a beacon of hope, and reach many who are ready to hear. No matter what your chosen field, you will have expertise in being well.