I can sure realte to your post Zule. I too have NO friends due to being ill for the last 10 years! I only have one friend I met here on CZ whom I chat with via emails ( we live in differeny countries ). People who haven't been through this just cannot relate. When I tell someone about being ill, they don't understand- I look fine- so they don't have a clue! I am doing MUCH better these days though. Even the lady who works at my health food store keeps commenting on how much better I look. I used to look half dead when I came in there.
I lost my Mom this past holiday season- talk about a miserable Christmas! Even still- I must go on. Spring is here and the sun is shining :-) Keep your head up- things Do get better even when the tunnel seems so dark.