Cotton Mouth, first off your lips look great. Congrats. Since your lips were really severely effected, I think you should be ecstatic now. Second, I really think you need some psychological help. There is no shame in this. I understand this condition destroys our mental health very well and I go through periods like this myself.
Third, I didn't want to tell you this before since I was worried you would lose hope. But since now your lips look great and you seem to be having a mental breakdown, I think it is worth mentioning. I don't want you to f*** up your lips and give yourself EC again for nothing. I tried gloves in a bottle like you recommended. At first, I thought the vertical lines were appearing as well. But then I realised, it's basically the layer of the product itself that develops lines, not the lips underneath. I'll try to explain. The product, gloves in a bottle, forms an artificial second skin, does it not? It's kind of like a layer of plastic on the skin? Well, when your stretch the skin that has this plastic-like film on it, it develops vertical lines in some parts where it has been stretched out and then contracted along with he movement of the lips. Incidentally, I think this is a similar is why we get vertical lines on our lips - the thin layer of keratin that is on all normal lips develops sort of micro-tears or grooves in it due to speaking ect.
Fourth, whenever the lip is raw, it looks better and more normal after a few days. I had an accident one time when I applied aquaphor really heavily and then went in he shower and my lip was completely raw. At first I was really worried because it looked terrible. But then, in a couple of days it started to look normal and I was hopeful it was healing. But the cycle proceeded as usual. I think this is because, effectively, when the skin is raw like that it doesn't have an intact epidermis. So, the skin needs to repair the epidermis before it can develop hyperkeritinizaton. So it starts to look normal a couple of days after it has been raw. IT hasn't had time to build up the keratin layer yet.
These are just my thoughts in any case.
Please don't do anything stupid, you will regret it. I guarantee.