Are you still getting me and Rainy mixed up? Not that I'm complaining, because I think well of Rainy.
As far as I can tell you have never changed. I have disagreed with you from day one that I came across curezone. Matter of fact you were the first person I responded to after reading curezone for a long time. That post has since disappeared since the big software breakdown on curezone that happened years ago. No I don't see any change in you. You were just as full of angst and fear as you are now. Matter of fact, I would be willing to say imo, that your heart condition was due to the way you look at life in general and not due to demons.