Blessed are the poor in spirit,...

Hello fellow depressees,
This year I am celebrating Christmas much the same as any other in my life (there have been 51) except that I've decided to no longer betray myself with the pretense of happiness (I need my self-respect). Some would argue that celebrations are a good way to exercise 'happiness', but the solution we all need is to fill the time between celebrations with 'happiness', not to use celebrations as a means of denial and self-DISrespect. I have come to understand that depressed people are a special breed of people because of their conscientious attitudes (love) towards what is good. Not being overly attracted and impressed by intelligence gathered from classrooms and books, we tend to be 'thinkers' and can only truly be satisfied by wisdom learned from personal experience and thought. It is this signal in our facial expressions and reactions to what people say that tells other people that they only need choose their words carefully to impose shame, guilt, humiliation and intimidation on us in order to manipulate us because, in this world it is true that 'Nice guys finish last' (by offering TOO much assistance, we leave ourselves vulnerable). It is simply that we are more conscientious than average and that we are too 'STARy eyed' (wide eyed and bushy taled, critics and spectators call it 'naive'). We are lovers of 'good' (conscientious, good and right and true, Ephesians 5:9). We are the scorned and mocked of this world and often find ourselves standing alone against the unrighteous predators of this world, but it is only our strength to do so that, through human frailty, has been mistaken by us and others as a weakness. In our continual experience of disappointment and heartbreak, we end up feeling an intense loneliness and become dejected, depressed and 'low in spirit', but as The Lord said in The Sermon On The Mount, Matthew 5:8, "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of God". It is your ability to recognize and appreciate pains and sorrows, your capacity to be sentimental and conscientious, and your unrecognized wisdom to understand how the human heart cries that is misconstrued as 'undesirable'. Of course, there are many reasons to respect my fellow human being, but I have never found a more admirable one than on this forum. Thank you for being you.

God bless you and Merry Christmas.
Yours truly, been there done that Tweet