CRACKING THE EGG of depression!!!

Last Saturdy, I did NOT feel hopeful. I was still “in” depression.
Today, one week later, I feel hopeful. Not great, but HOPEFUL! And that is like a different world.

What cracked the egg of depression?

Was it the switch to liquid vitamins? That’s been a month. Was it the addition of magnesium? That’s been about a month. Was it the parasite formula? The zapping? The Bentonite clay? The physillium? The chi gong wall squats (at least 30 a day for about a two weeks) Was it the green drink at my neighbors every week morning for a couple weeks? Walking every morning? Was it the energy work by my chi gong group on me they did two weeks ago? Was it the two visits to the acupuncturist? Was it taking off from the amino acids and myriad of supplements I’ve been taking for years? Was it the liver cleanse I did on Thursday? Was it cutting meat out or juicing my fruits and vegetables in the vita mix for the last 10 days? Adding apple cider vinegar to my routine each morning? Was it reaching out to people on cure.zone and feeling like they were offering help?

Why am I hopeful today when a week ago I felt hopeless, when 4 weeks ago the doctor felt so sorry for me he asked if I needed to be hospitalized, and suggested I reconsider anti-depressants (which lit a fire under me to do all the things I’ve learned to do), when earlier during the summer I had to battle suicidal thoughts? How did I get from there to here? Which of these things cracked the egg of depression?

And WHY, in heavens name, do I start waking up at 3 am at the same time?(Insomnia/not sleeping was one of the things that started this cycle--It does not feel like it is a good thing, During the Depression stage I sleep too much, can't wake up, fall asleep throughtout the day--the waking up too early is a swing to the other side--what I'm looking for is balance)

And for the most vital question: How do I not repeat the cycle? I do I stay out?

Any thoughts?
peace and joy seem possible once more--
pj


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