Yea bro you sound pretty positive and focused, I need to be more like that. For me it was not always like this. This happend all of a sudden, so it gets me even more upset. Finding a job is nearly impossible unless you work in the sewer, and even then you have to do maybe interview in a clean place. I pray but at times it doesn't make sense to me at all. Are you from the United States? I'm Mexican also.