I actually thought I might have wrote this myself. I actually checked to see if I did and forgot!
I used to feel the same way about NC. I was about a day away from demanding it, they disowned us, that includes my husband and our children, Their grandchildren.
What is sad, is when I look back, the day we were disowned was the happiest day of my life and I have children!
Do not ever EVER feel guilty for going NC. It is the only way to stop this.Stay Strong!