Because I keep thinking and thinking for 5-6 years now what led to what.
I started whith anxiety/phobias, wanted to overcome these, went to talking therapy for 4 years. The 4-th year went to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy that took my sleep away COMPLETELY. I stayed 1 year not sleeping at all in total panic and after that I started taking Remeron for sleeping. Since than (6 years ago) my sleep is not natural/refrashing at all (feels like not sleeping, just some sedation from Remeron), I'm over thinking CONTANTLY, I'm desperate and panicked and I'm bearly living (thanks to vit C, vit B5 and some yoga/meditation).
Practicaly I live in my head.