Re: Need help feeling better!
I know what low self esteem is. If it's not that you are surrounded by people that constantly belittle you, it's that you have taken over in their absence and are filling in for them. You have learned well, those people would be proud of you, but it's time for you to become arrogant and rebel against their teachings. You said that there were some things you'd rather not talk about. The way to ensure that you keep your low self esteem is to keep those things a "dirty little secret" that you can always carry around with you instead of talk about them and make them part of THE PAST. Right now, they are part of the present, and if you keep them with you, they will also be part of the future. What you need to decide is...what are you going to choose as your identity (who you are)? Is your PAST going to define who you are, or your PRESENT? Of course there are dum stupid mistakes in your past that you'd rather not reveal, so, if those mistakes don't haunt you and are already left in the past, you will want to skip them instead of senselessly bring them up, this way you can live them down, instead, only talk about the guilt, humiliation and intimidation that have caused your low self esteem. Everybody in the world CAN be thought of as a "burden" to each other, but many people rather think of each other as a GIFT to each other NO MATTER what, as long as that person (you) is willing to let their past be the PAST (it sounds like he thinks of you as a GIFT, are you trying to make a fool out of him?).