Re: normal

I have grown up with suicidal feelings, but never REALLY believed in suicide (trapped). So I pretty much just gave up on life. I did bounce back and forth trying to get on with life, and then, for the last 19 years, I became a workaholic and worked my life away (20 hours a day nonstop). I am not saying (not by a longshot) that you should do that, definitely not), but the suicidal feelings almost COMPLETELY disappeared (of course, because I had thrown my life away instead of taking it), but now that I look around my apartment, I noticed that, over those 19 years, I had collected a tremendous amount of "stuff" (books, thigamagigs, gadgets,etc.), I just never put any of that stuff to use (never read any of the books or anything), but now I realize that they all represent my interests in life. Explore your interests, realize them, get to know them. You are a very interesting person. I'm not just "blowing smoke",...
I KNOW!
I've travelled a similar road as you.
You and me are not completely different.

You are CONSCIENTOUS and can "feel"...HURT, PAIN and SORROW. That takes INSIGHT and allows you to understand wisdom. Do not take these words lightly. Get to know other people. At first, some stupid people will "shoot you down" because of jealousy of how REAL you are, but then, you will also meet other people who will be more mature and APPRECIATE knowing you. There will always be people who will be jealous of you. Your ability to have insight will always be considered to be IMPOSING (especially by stupid people), and you will have to learn to control it. Some people will childishly RESENT how imposing you are, but the ones you want to know are the ones who can appreciate it. You even have the ABILITY to have faith. Tweet