I can't believe I've found this, I've been suffering from exactly what you just said and I've went ahead and ordered the cream and the grape fruit extract. I just checked my area aswell and to my surprise it's raw red. Hopefully I end up in the same situation as you because mentally and emotionally this is killing me, I've even had to drop out of university for a year and my paranoia of small spaces and even sitting next to people is ridiculous, I must look like a paranoid mess to others. Congratulations on beating it and hopefully i'll update with my progress.