Right! I thought that not waking up would be a good idea as well but I have ppl who would be devastated if that would happen . I understand some very fundamental truths that keep me going:
1) Never be afraid of the truth
2)If someone betrays me or gossips about me or lies on me , I have to remember that I am a child of God and that those ppl cannot hold a candle to the light that God shines on my face everyday
3) I am so full of Love, and I share that everywhere I go! I love the unloveable because I am loved, I comfort and console others because I have received the same things... It helps me keep going .
But it hurts like hell that I can't get the most out of my life because this disorder is socially crippling! That's straight from hell!