A bus journey, a very painful and cold 3+ hours, every second reminding me of shame and pain.
So i travelled to another city to meet a friend and on the way back, i had no idea what was waiting.
I got on the bus and found a seat alone, wonderful feeling. Then the bus driver gets on requests that those who have not been signed onto the bus get off and I had to. I then joined the back of the queue. Upon getting back on i was forced to sit next to a girl, wearing a loose bra like top. Because of the recent heatwave, neither one of us carried a jacket. She looked like she was going to the beach but most importantly the day was kinda cool and cold.
As soon as the bus left she put the ac above us on. I thought sweet because of the moving around i was kind of hot so i turned one towards me. Until about half an hour later i noticed she was cold and had started breathing OUT heavily sometimes. Then i looked at every other ac on the bus and only our one was on. The next 3hrs was me sitting there, understanding every second, that i am absolutely helpless. Too ashamed to ask her why she's freezing.
Note i had bathed just FOUR hours before, used Lynx Dry antiperspirant spray excessively.
I have no idea what to do any more. I can't keep a relationship with this and i want a family. My life is over.
Karma in the sense i MUST have committed atrocities in my past life. I don't deserve this torture otherwise.