I just want to say I'm sorry on how you're feeling. I have been there with the depersonalization 2 years ago and it lasted a full 6 months of that hazy hellish place. Have you tried the recommended cleanses on curezone? Bowel, parasite, liver flush? The information and good people on this site helped restore my health. I just want to comment that you do have a soul and however you're feeling now is just toxicity. It's amazing what physical sickness does to the mind. Please don't lose faith, you have a God that loves you beyond comprehension and a community that wants to help you get better.