Re: Welcome to my awful world....

Hi. I just wanted to say that I know exactly how you're feeling. I too am trapped in a job situation where I'm basically being indirectly bullied and abused. It's frustrating when you're doing everything in your power to make things better and nothing works. I went to a university for 4 yrs. It was torture, but I made it through. I can't find a job in my field. I have a job. It's not what I want to do but it pays the bills. The other day I let my anger get the best of me and cursed at a customer. They didn't hear me, but I felt stupid and spent the entire weekend stressing about whether they or someone heard me. Whether I would have a job on Monday. I realized that reacting to these things only hurts me in the long run. I definitely feel like giving up most days. I'm kind of like a celebrity where I'm at these days. People that I don't know, certainly know me. They point, they whisper,they laugh, they run for cover, they hold their noses, etc. Finding another job is pretty pointless because of this. With my luck I'll get to the point of the interview and they slam the door in my face just because they recognize me. I don't know where it all ends. Even if I am cured, by some miracle, my life still probably won't change. My reputation is that of someone who stinks and word gets around, so my only option is to move. Even if I do move, with camera phones, and the internet, I'm sure my image is somewhere the the caption "she stinks." Despite all of that I do remain hopeful that things will change and life will turn around for the better. I hope it does for you too. Tweet