Hi Freedom,
Godseeker30 here. I'm so very sorry, for everything, you've had too put up with in work, amountst other things(: Even when I'm in the exact same position as you, sometimes the only thing, I can think of doing, is too pray too God, when nothing else comes too my mind!! You are lucky, you have someone who loves you very much:D I too, have that special lady in my life and am very grateful as a man, too have a special woman like her in my life :D. I am sorry I don't know what else too tell ya(: Just pray, that's all I can say:)I really do hope, you find some peace from this horrible situation:D Okay take care and God bless.