Dude I understand that this is a forum where you can come and let your feelings out, but everyone on here knows that its hard to live with EC. Posts like this dont help anyone, and to be honest since everyone's going through this I dont think anybody is feeling that bad for you. We all go through this shit, so quit feeling bad for yourself and do something about it. Have you been to the doctor, gotten a biposy, culture, allergy test, blood workup? If you havent and your just sitting there feeling bad for yourself and thinking that some miracle will pop up and cure you, then I dont feel bad for you. And I dont mean to be a dick, so sorry if its coming off that way.