I am so stressed too.This thing is killing me and it seems to be getting worse as the years go by.
I'm not working because of it and I hate leaving the house. I do it anyway because there was a time when people's cruel comments had me locking myself in the house. I didn't go outside at all. I do agree with Ryan.It was praying to God that helped me. Every day I pray and ask him to lead the way and to help me to cope and to deal with all the bad stuff until I find a cure . So now I don't allow anyone to stop me from going to the grocery store or from going outside to empty the garbage.
I don't have a normal social life. I have a few friends that I try my very best to avoid.They don't know that I'm aware of my problem. They probably talk about it behind my back.They are ok it's just hard being around them when I probably smell so funky. I guess they are a blessing since they help to pull me out sometimes.
My mom and my little sister help me with grocery, bills and so on. I am so thankful for them. Sometimes I feel ashamed about them having to take care of me like that..but one day I told my sister how grateful I am and that I hope I can do the same for her one day.. she told me that I will be able to and that I would do the same for her.
Right now I'm just trying new things, supplements and I sent out some job letters and just leaning on God.It's all I can do for now.