hopeless lost and angry. old me new me. post mirena

:(

my thyroid hasn't gone back from being "enlarged" yet blood says its producing the right amount of hormones and ultrasound did not show a goiter or tumor.

and to top it off when i am pmsing i am the same train wreck i was. there are excellent days, the gloom cleared... but at the same time i still feel quite broken.

new mystery diagnosis:
kidney infections (which don't go away with treatment leading me to believe pid, but sooooo afraid of that diagnosis)

an ultra sound on my legs for clots since my calfs and theighs are in constant pain. :(

headaches in the back part of my skull as if i have a tumor

went from very low bp my whole life to normal/high but an increase in heart rate by 70%

a doctor who doesn't believe me, and who tells me to stop acting like a "rape victim"

a psychiatric who works for the same idiot hospital that fit me with the damn mirena the same day cervical cancer was removed. :( who only wants to give me antidepressants and constantly repeats the upping of dosage of med's i've never needed and refuse to take.

however, like i said there are good days, its and i don't feel like eeyore all the time, i am 85% better, but still lacking in many areas and want to be me again.

feel hopeless lost and angry.