thanks for the reply chiron, refreshed.
So today I started my day with keeping my awareness on God. Of course I got distracted at regular intervals but I just returned to thinking of him. I also thought about his love for me, how amazing he is and how he loves me. I had a wonderful sense of well being. And the words that eventually came was I am enough. I have never felt enough in my whole life, never. But that is what came. I have striven after feeling enough in every way imaginable. I am not even currently working due to fatigue etc. but this morning i had my first real felt experience of I am enough.
I remember a bible study on Jesus walking on the water. Peter stepped out with his eyes on Jesus and took a few steps, but as soon as he took his eyes of Jesus he began to sink. And Jesus said something about little faith. There's the biblical reference. It came to me this morning before I was really awake. Oh how I pray for discernment over what thoughts are mine and what thoughts the enemies. Most of all what thoughts are from God. I fear the enemy within far more than any false prophet without.
Many of you have already found your rest in Jesus. This is mine. I am so grateful for the practical steps to achieving this. I am always worshiping, intercedeing, supplicating, waiting for response. Never just aware, focused...