Aha a deep seated emotional discharge, this accounts for the lack of clarity. Often those in the midst of these events often grasp at anything that gives substance to their grief,, often leading them in the opposite direction, an enemy of my enemy must be a friend so to speak, but a trap of its own and quit common. Most cults isms or anti belief system are filled with those who have been abused or deceived by their original belief system only to find themselves back where they started from. Beware my friend, of isms bearing gifts.