Well I know what got me into this AF mess and that is relationships. I have done a lot of healing on this. One particular relationship which was a huge emotional crisis for me did a big number on my head and my self esteem. I had been working on it for years trying to forgive and forget what happened and how I was treated. I made a lot of progress with life/spiritual coaches I had the opportunity to work with. They got me out of the numbness and back into the real world of feelings. After that there were still layers to peel away. My final release was doing work with a NueroModulation Technique practitioner. Now I don't really care to even think about that relationship or person. The old memories don't pop up and aggravate me anymore. I did find that after I got over that whole relationship there is some pain connected with other incidence that person affected. Just goes to show how everyting we do every choice we make, every action we chose to take effects something or someone else.