I have felt the same way you do in the past two years, except I never got a diagnosis. I was just told I have post-infectious IBS after a trip to India. Well, I know the docs are wrong because I have moving pains all over my body. Did a doctor diagnose you with strongilodies (sp?)? Counseling and cognitive therapy helped me some. You have to remind yourself that you are a beautiful creation of God. Love as much as you can in the meantime and keep with the cleansing! In time things will get better.