Sorry, cadogan. Your in good company here. It seems a lot of us are suffering from a break up, divorce, or somewhere in between the two. I guess it's something to be expected. I can't really blame the other people for not understanding (although sometimes I do:) because they have no idea what it's like to be this miserable and fragile. All they know is that they are healthy enough and we can't be a proper partner to them. Then they get to go to work with other healthy people with similar goals, so I guess that sucks for us. Of course I'm not letting them off the hook, it takes a decent human being to be able to honor their vows "in sickness and in health".
I don't honestly think I could abandon someone that is ill. I always have thought that even before I became ill. I'm not saying I would find it easy but I think all in all I just would be too committed. So if I feel that way, then there has to be other people that feel that way too. And maybe one day everyone on here will be blessed enough to find that person in their life for them.