Re: Future

Midge,
Just an idea.
Find the gallbladder reflexology point on your foot/hand/ whatever. work it or have someone who knows something about reflexology work it. Is it tender at all? Maybe that will tell you something. Your body knows, despite all the tests.

I was feeling so HORRIBLE if finally got some testing done somewhere I could control the results. So I'm in PAIN, hurting in every muscle, joint, etc.

All they came up with was I was prediabetic, had a low grade fever, and although evertying tested in the "normal' range, it was all consistantly low. In other words, according to "their" medical standards, I am just fine.

Well, obviously, anyone who has had severe insomnia (okay, I didn't confess that one, I was afraid they would freak out) for well over three months and can feel the mental stress/ anxiety.....has to have SOMETHING wrong. But it was okay. I was relieved to see that everything I'm doing, as weird as it is, is keeping me together. They wrote me a script for muscle relaxant, and I just laughed.

So I'm glad my body is 'holding out'. But I've always said I take everything with a 'grain of epson salt". It is way past time for me to flush again, and I'm not sure why I keep hesitating, or why I'botched' the last flush. Might be so many relationship problems I can see straight. Or the lack of sleep. I complained once in public, about not sleeping the night before, and everyone chimes in, Yea, I only slept blah blah blah. I hold my tongue, but feel like screaming--try not sleep for 3 flipping MONTHS. My "counselor" says I better stop being so good at putting on a front--I only break down on curezone and to him. To everyone else, I just smile, am pleasant (mostly) and say "I'm okay" when people ask.

Integrate the real feelings? Let people SEE I feel like crap? I don't know.
And I digressed. Just got chatting and lost my place.

Anyway Midge, bottom line; trust your GUT instincts. If everything was okay, then why would you feel like it isn't? Why would I?

Hang in there. Hey, I'm ready to flush again soon. How about you?
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