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Re: Trying to get out of a relationship
Hello Blue Rose,
I appreaciate your feedback, I will check out the groups you told me.
Problem is that even if I was to look for support here like church he wont let me go there on my own. And with him being present there's not much I can do.
I dont know what is asylum but from my knowledge when you do not have money to stay in foreign country or you got trouble they will just tell you to go back to your country.
As for going to my country, I left to U.S. when I was 12, I dont even speak Russian all that well. I dont have anybody there except for my alcoholic father who's interested in taking advantage of me not in helping me and who'd side with my spouse at any time against me for a glass of vodka.
Russia is out of the question for me. People die on the streets in Russia and nobody cares. I have no chance of surviving there...not having own apartment to live in is probably the most serious issue in Russia, people kill for real estate there. This is how my mother committed suicide, she couldn't afford an apartment after she gambled the money away.
I am probably in more need of a mental support...because I am not brave enough to get up and leave- after being told that im worthless, that i will die on the streets I cant help but let these words get to me, although I've tried hard not to get it inside my head. The longer I am staying with him the more scared I am about separating from him. Is this normal characteristics of someone in abusive relationship?