As book shops the internet the media and films abounded with the very topic of ufo and aliens it no longer was such a BIG SECRET....But it certainly felt like this during the years of carrying it about and sure enough it became a burden of some sorts and an unhealthy one at that for me personally. I don't know about you but it felt risky to reveal this burden all the same almost as if there would be repercussions of some sort..? But
Thankfully there hasn't been for me. People are more open and comfortable about it unlike the days of my mum where this would be a no zone topic of conversation...i do feel as though she herself had experience of such matters too given her reaction to one of my sisters larking about and pretending to have seen a ufo through the window one night..her strong reaction spoke volumes as did her slap for the "fibbing" about seeing one..it left me and my sisters open mouthed and aghast on seeing our mum acting so out of character...and her being so unsettled by our prank. It's not uncommon for family members to have shared ufo experiences...at some stage or another...
Sadly my mum is no longer alive to have a good natter with about a subject which in her day would have been incredibly taboo. It must have been so very dreadful to keep this to oneself and how reassuring it must be for the earlier abductees of generations ago of her age to see this subject matter aired and discussed more and shared by so many and not to feel so isolated in the experience.
I hope you feel better for getting it off your chest..you may touch and reconnect to the fear each time you express your story but by expressing it you are "expressing out the fear" that may have been locked in your system which is a good healthy thing.
I learnt the hard way, not everyone you feel close to will be positively receptive to your "Story" thats why forums such as these and elsewhere are like an oasis for delivering your experience...part of healing on any emotional scale sometimes necessitates the element of being "heard" by a whitness/s. Almost as in a confession box if you like.. Somehow writing up our experiences and then burning or throwing them in the bin does not always have the same healing power and effect. I hope your getting it off your chest frees you up more..