What you have is denial of your true nature and the nature of others. Those who have enslaved your mind and taught you to hate yourself (much like how the Feminist Movement taught females to hate themselves and men too) have made you infantile with fantasies of religion and mythology to make you dependent on them so that they own you. The ability of you to go about your daily life without the need to defend yourself is in fact being done by you paying through taxes to others to do the dirty work for you. A cop or soldier by proxy or your self defense defending your body is the same thing. Your ideals are those of luxuy not survival and reality. Your body might be unmolested but you have not been able to keep them from attacking and infiltrating your mind. Unless of course you are tying to infiltrate and manipulate our minds with these brainwashing ideals of apathetic slavery.