I'm very sorry you are feeling very down about life and I totally understand where you are coming from I have a very bad Body Odor . The other day I went to the store and alot of people were rude to me making negative comments and laughing at me. Alot of them didn't seem to care that they were saying it loud enough for me to hear. I was treated like garbage. IT hurt so much emotionally it made my day bad. I came home in a bad mood thinking to myself will I ever be normal again and smell good. I just can't believe how cold and cruel some people are in this world. I mean not everyone at the store was rude to me there were a couple nice people and some people did not notice my bo but I would say about 80% of the people that day noticed my bo. My family also lies to me and says I do not smell but I know they are lying becuase I have even noticed them react to my bo in a negative way.they try their best not to hurt my feelings but I can tell sometimes by their reactions on thier face that my bo bothers them. I hope you feel much better soon and remember everyone has a burden in life and bo just seems to be ours and eventually there will be a solution for us I believe. I will pray for you I always pray to God everyday and more so when life's problems are overwhelming becuase I know he cares and loves me and he loves all of us and he will help us. Take care:)