This makes sense. I admire your strength. If it takes appearing emaciated to lose this dependence on food for comfort and gain freedom from the horrifying and sometimes humorous cycle of binging than I need to take this risk. Sometimes I feel like I go through this in part to keep the people close to me from worrying and they've seemed pretty concerned about my weight recently. I stayed with them and ate their idea of normal for a few days and felt sort of content, but always with the lingering idea that this needs to change and that I can't eat to please people or eat to gain enough weight to pass as "healthy" or eat to feel loved.
Now that I've returned I want to make a commitment to stay on a long term modified fasting plan. Such as breaking a 0 calorie fast with a master cleanse or non-sweet fruit before returning to fasting. I also find sugary fruit to trigger me, but would find it too difficult to do sprouts only, though I may end up there at some point when I've made more progress with this.
I think it will take a lot of emotional work to succeed with this and confront my fears of getting too skinny and detach from the opinions of others.