I just wanted to say hi:) And I read your whole post, and I understand you so much. I hear ya hon, I truly do:) God bless you for coming this far, and for sticking with the IP for a month solid- it's more than many of us have been able to manage so far, including myself, and girl you gotta pat yourself BIG TIME on the back for that!!!! :DDD
You have every right to feel as you do- heck, the last two days, I've been feeling the very same way! I whined and complained to a friend about it and I didn't feel right about that, but ya know, sometimes, you just have to get it out!
You're doing everything you can- and I think, in my humble opinion, that if you need a day/week break- take it! If you're going to make yourself crazy, take a few days off, collect yourself- don't go nuts with food, as you said, when you're emotional, you go to food- and I am the same way. It's such a tricky situation when you have all these consequences from eating. It's like forced anorexia- well that's how I call it. I know how it messes with the mind and emotions. Stay raw, eat small meals, and see how you feel. Of course, talk to Uny, find out what she thinks- but I know that this is a program that goes in 30 day cycles, and I know people usually take a break after a month to regroup- so I don't think there would be any harm in that.
Sometimes relaxing, letting go, walking barefoot in the grass, getting extra sleep, a warm bath- and lots of love and hugs, is the best thing we can do for our physical and mental health. The program is always right there for you to hop back onto. And...I think a tiny break will allow you to re-evaluate what did/didn't work this month- how you can more effectively take your tinctures without knocking yourself out (!) and refining the routines- especially so that you can have some bowel movements on your own. I am in the same boat with that- it's so unpredictable, and most times, I just have to do an enema, because things have to go through at some point! I also concur about the CE's and them affecting bowel activity- again, figuring this out can be tricky. But I am sure it IS feasible. See what advice comes up for you in the next few days, as people chime in.
My thoughts are with you April. Be good to yourself. You WILL get through this!