Hi Hon, I know we have corresponded before, I remember you! We talked about the Liver Flush a while back:) I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I empathize completely. I have written letters like this on the forum too, for anyone to give me advice for a very tricky situation as well.
All I can tell you, is please do not give up hope. I know exactly how you feel. I do. I would like us to correspond by private mail if you are up for it. I am here for you always:) And I speak french! It's coming in handy for once!
Also I want to say this, because I have noticed a difference in my body the last couple of days, and I think it may be helpful for you. Get some Slippery Elm, Superfood, cinnamon and licorice root powder. SE is the #1 thing you can do for yourself RIGHT NOW. Take it several times a day- I have been making it into a 'soup' which I will provide you the link for in a sec. Kcirla, trust me, I have HUGE issues with food as well, because my gut is so compromised, and I truly feel that the SE has saved my life.
Someone had posted a while back about how she used SE+ licorice root powder to help heal a leaky gut, which then allowed her to continue with the cleansing herbs and do it all succefully. She took equal parts SE and Licorice root, mixed it, and then took a tablespoon of each, mixed with a bit of water to form a paste and swallow this every waking hour for two weeks. What I have done for a few weeks is this: I have been making this 'soup' mixture at least three times a day, always using licorice root powder/cinnamon to sweeten it, and I really REALLY feel that is is helping!
Trust me, even if this is ALL you can eat in a day, you will be ok. If anything you are getting all the nutrition from SE/Superfood, + some healthy oils, garlic to kill bugs and the herbs to help blood sugar/heal the gut/sweeten it.
What you HAVE to remember- ESPECIALLY when days are tough and you feel that you can't do it anymore- is that healing takes time. I know, I know- NOBODY wants to hear that. I KNOW this is frustrating as HELL! I know hon:). You CAN do this! I know you can get through this, and trust me when I say that you are here for a reason, and once you get better and on your feet, you will be able to help other people too:)
The other thing is, once your gut is better, you'll be able to tolerate the juicing and anything else you put in your body. Also, your emotions will be more stable. I know the situation at home is rough- and at best, if YOU feel less awful from the physical issues, it will be easier to handle the family. I also believe you will need to do a parasite cleanse, once you get on with cleansing your colon.
I have taken the ACV bomb mixture for parasites twice each day for the last two days- and I swear to you, I thought I would get very sick from it, since I haven't done a thorough bowel cleanse- but I don't! I feel like something incredible is happening- like it's moving stuff out- I don't feel worse at all! And I'm working on the #1 and 2 at the same time.