I want to to go to school and have a girl friend!!!!Errrrrrrrr

I really want to succed in my life.I want to go to school and have a girlfriend again.thinking of accomplishing it now just seems like a impossible luxury now.I m sooo depressed and insecure now.the odors kind of fecal and garbage kind.I sometimes smell suppliments I take for working out.I especially hate those Asian dudes that laugh at me in the gym : ( god help!!!! Thinking of having a girlfriend that wud just besidesme talk to me care for me and love me is just immpossible.I need to go to school..see even my grammers gettin poorer!!!