I wouldn't say that it was fully torn apart, but in all rights, it should have been. My incredible husband is just ever so patient with me. I've been off for 6 month now and with the help of a pain medication/anti-depressant, we are abck on track 6 months post. We laugh all the time like we used to and can have family outings to the beach again without me crumpling both physically and emotionally. Hang in there.