Well I have suffered a hell of a lot for many many many years. However, I was never near death, I only desperately wished for it, but only in the first few years when I was relying on doctors and medicines and the pain and suffering was constantly extremely severe and debilitating and I had no joy or happiness of any kind because the pure misery day in and day out with no hope in sight was just too much to enjoy anything. I'm much better now but have a ways to go. SO I know exactly what you are saying!!!
Although Arthritis is new to me, so no I guess I have not suffered enough with that to learn my lesson, cuz I still want to eat the bad stuff once in a while. I really appreciate your post and giving it to me straight! We all need to hear it, even if we don't fully agree with it for our own selves at the time. But the future could be different, so thanks! :-)